HOPE

What’s going on? What’s wrong with you? Why are you feeling down since Sunday? I thought attending the mass and having a quiet moment in the Adoration Chapel will help you get over that mountain of emotions you’re trying to overcome? But why are you still like that? Do you think it’s still normal to feel that way?

Lately, I have been noticing that you sleep a lot. Remember that one time when you went to a coffee shop with friends and you’re not even aware that you fell asleep? They just woke you up when it’s time to go home. Seriously, did you just go there to sleep? And, the moment you opened your eyes you felt lost and clueless of what happened that night. That’s why you are so surprised when a video of you sleeping came out the next day. And, last Monday night, you slept earlier than usual but still felt like you didn’t get enough sleep the next day. And then last night, I can’t believe you slept around 8pm, on the wrong side of the bed, with your ipad playing Bo Sanchez’ talk about “Developing a Positive Mindset”. If your roommate didn’t wake you up I bet you overslept and failed to go to work. Why do you always unconsciously fall into a deep slumber? Do you find comfort in sleeping because it’s such a chore to stay awake? This is starting to bother me. Seriously.

And, you are so unmotivated these past few days. I feel like you are not in the mood to do anything or to talk to anyone (not even to your closest friends). You don’t even respond to viber messages. I don’t know what to do to you anymore. I don’t know what to tell you to make you feel better. I tried but you just fall asleep everytime I try to talk to you. Sometimes I want to shake you until you wake up and see the beauty of a new day that God has given you to enjoy. I want to understand you; I really do. I want to know how one day you are in a very good mood and days later it seems like the whole world is on your shoulder. I thought you are over this stage? I thought you’ve finally found the happiness that you’ve been running after for so long. I thought you’ve had your life’s turning point? I thought you’re tired of being this way? I thought you’re tired of being sad so you just woke up one day and decided that you don’t want to be like that anymore? But, look at you now; You’re back to your old self. Do you want to be like that again? Isn’t it more enjoyable if you will just, for goodness sake, decide to be happy and not overthink things? How come some people lost someone they love and they can still wake up every morning with a smile on their faces and you who lost nothing regrets each day before you even start it?

Let me assure you. Remember what Bo Sanchez said? “The last chapter of your life has been written and it has a happy ending.” Isn’t that assurance enough for you to go on with life no matter how emotionally and mentally tired you are? Isn’t that enough for you to enjoy the rain while waiting for the rainbow? Don’t just sleep. Wake up. Screw the world. See the world. Go out with positive friends. Stop overthinking. Stop torturing yourself. Breathe in and out. Can you just realize how lucky you are to be able to do that? Stop looking for what’s lacking in your life and focus on what you have. Let go of the past and look forward to what the future can bring. It may be a little stormy now but it won’t rain forever. Find happiness in little things. Count your blessings. Let go and Let God. Develop a personal relationship with Him. Pray often because there’s no better feeling than the feeling you get after praying. I know you can’t do all these in a snap of a finger but you’ll get there. One day, you will learn how to deal with life’s disappointments and imperfections. You won’t cry yourself to sleep. You won’t feel a day feeling awful. You won’t beg people to appreciate you. You will be alright.

Never give up. HOPE: Hold On, Pain Ends.

 

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I will never get tired of cheering you up. But, please listen to me sometimes.

Your best friend and worst enemy,

Yourself.

P.S. I hope the days to come will be awesome. Hey, I love you, you idiot. 😀

Dear Future Lover

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Let me sing you a Michael Buble song that best describes my process of waiting for you. This song is just perfect and it gives me goose bumps every time I hear it. It goes like this….

 I know someday that it’ll all turn out

 You’ll make me work, so we can work to work it out

I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get

 I JUST HAVEN’T MET YOU YET

I might have to wait

I’ll never give up

 I guess it’s half timing, and the other half’s luck

 Wherever you are, whenever it’s right

 You’ll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing

And, baby, your love is gonna change me

They say all’s fair  In love and war

 But I won’t need to fight it

 We’ll get it right and we’ll be united

<3 <3 <3

I don’t know where you are right now or what you are doing or who is with you but I know someday our paths will cross at the right time, right place and right moment. I bet it will be epic. I don’t care if I’ll bump with you in a mall or I’ll meet you at a common friend’s party or you’ll offer a seat in Church or maybe you’ll just accidentally dial my number, the point here is, you’ll meet me and I’ll meet you. “You’ll come out of nowhere and into my life.” That will be the start of our happily ever after.

To be completely honest, I am not praying for you. Well, okay, I prayed for you once and I never mentioned it to God since then. I trust His plans and I know He’ll send you to me when my heart is ready and when that time comes I will know that you are the one. There will be no doubts or hesitations or fear. It would be like magic. Timing is everything and our timing will be perfect. By that time, I will let go of all my fears and doubts because I know you will be worth the risk. I will not be afraid to give it a shot and we’ll both be happy.

But, for now, I am still having the time of my life with my family and friends. I don’t think I need you now to be happy. Although I know that it’ll be happier if I have you but let’s just be happier later. I guess I’ll just see you soon and I promise you when that time comes it will be amazing. I just haven’t met you yet but I know you will be worth the wait and one day I will wake up next to you and kiss you good morning and sleep next to you and kiss the day goodbye.

Wherever you are right now, whatever you’re doing and whoever is with you, I will just be right here waiting for you. Find me if you can.

xoxo,

Your Future Lover

Dear Thirty Something Me

Well, hello there! How are you businesswoman? I bet the business is doing great because you have been very busy lately. Am I right? Keep it up, girl! I know you’ve always wanted to be your own boss. You deserve all the blessings you are getting. Brace yourself, free your hands because more blessing are about to come. All your hard work and sacrifices paid off. You’re finally the captain of your own ship and be calm for you are going in the right direction.

But, don’t be too occupied. Take a break. Perhaps a trip to the beach with your long time friends will do. Shall I book that ticket to Boracay? or Cebu? or La Union? or maybe you want to try Phuket? Come on and book that flight before your much anticipated trip to Paris. Oh, Good time. Lucky You!

Oh, before I forget, how are the twins? Are you enjoying motherhood? They are so cute. Adorable. I can’t stop looking at them especially when they are asleep. It still amazes me how much God trusted you with the lives of those little babies on your hands. They are perfect. I know sleepless nights are hard but I can read on your face how happy you have become since they were born. How’s ???? as a first time dad? I bet he is thrilled too. Whenever I picture a happy family I always think about yours. Your house is full of love and happiness.

Okay, gotta go. I need to run some errands. Grocery shopping is always fun. And, I think I will do some shopping too.

I Love You. I can’t wait to be you.

Oh life, the best is yet to come. Cheers!

Love,

Twenty Something You

 

Changes

Why do I have this feeling that I am about to lose you soon? Why do I have this extensive amount of fear deep in my heart? I feel like life will find a way to tear as apart. I feel like we don’t have much time left to be together.

Where is this fear coming from? Who can stop me from feeling this way?

But, as they always say, you only lose something that you’re holding on to. Does it mean I have to let go or it simply means that I should be prepared of losing you?

Here I am begging God again to give me more time with you. You are essential to my survival. I need you and I am not yet prepared not to have you. I can adjust with the changes in our lives but i cannot handle losing you. But how long can I keep up with the changes? I really don’t know.

But, above all reasons…the top reason for my fear is because you haven’t taught me how to live without you yet.

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